The Warrior Anchored In

The Warrior Anchored In | Dainty Jewelry | Mishawaka, IN | Elizabeth Carris | Bold As Love | Honey Shea Studios

Anchor Necklace | Dainty Jewelry | Mishawaka, IN | Honey Shea StudiosImages captured by Honey Shea Studios

My mind is a mess of tangled and twisted webs full of medical knowledge and repeated sadness hosted by the killer that lives inside my son, all three of them. It’s a circus where the clowns aren’t happy and the ringmaster is desperately seeking something tangible and delectable but by the unfortunate design of life’s cruelty, it’s only attainable in moments. But it is in those moments where I shine. Reality is a nest of beautiful distractions used daily to get by. John Lennon said “whatever gets you through the night” and sometimes that holds true during the day. 

I have had to hold my breath so many times on this journey as our lives were capsized by pain and disease. So many times that I feel I have become part mermaid, learning to love the water instead of the fear of going under. I am the captain of this ship and the anchor of our world.  I hold fast to what’s been given to us even in the face of death and the demons that have tried to take me under never to return. Clean and sober, alive and awake I grasp at happiness one page at time through erotic sensual novels that leave me hot and wanton to the sublime poets who’s heart felt lays capture my essence and bring me confidence through their words. Or the classics that stand alone and take me down the rabbit hole of my own cognition to the terror stricken worlds created by each talented author of then and now. And the comics that calm and create another province where the pursuit of justice against the enemy is alive through animation. Those are my go to’s. 

Music is medicine to me. Where the lyrics lie dormant in my mind like sleeping beauty and once kissed she rises with love and lust and seeking an honest life with prince charming but, in my world, they’re all fifty shades of fucked up and they use handcuffs and riding crops and not on their white horses. 

Anchored necklace “Bold as Love” {linked}

Entertainment is crucial to the survivalist sailing the waters of the cosmos like mine. No matter the distraction though, the pain, suffering and the truth of the matter of the what if’s and what have been’s, you must remain anchored in. Always holding fast. Play time and night time collide and day dreams become night dreams and the moon a sullen friend and the stars are for certain a sailor’s guide even in the deepest of darkness. 

Let’s all wish Elizabeth a big Happy Birthday today!

I learned to take a deep breath and let myself go under the water. I learned to leave the chaos above and sink beneath the crashing waves that come from my anxiety ridden every day and appreciate the peace and silence of the depths of myself. It is ok to be a mess. It is ok to be gentle on yourself when everything else around you is hard and difficult and stressful and depleting. It is in this realm that I could find myself and come into my own skin and reward myself with a healthy disposition and acceptance of myself. To be ok with my authentic self is something that I struggle with but it’s necessary for survival, otherwise, I would be swallowed down into those depths with no air and no hope. I would lose myself and I can’t risk that because through the tragedy of this life I have seen the light in the dark, the rainbow in the storm through the love and determination of a boy fighting for his life. A life I created and he is Bold As Love and I am his mother, the warrior anchored in. 

Elizabeth Carris
Blogger of Lollipop Day Dreams {linked}

More about Honey Shea

“Is your name really Honey?” I get this question all the time. Yes it is! My first name is Honey and my middle name is Shea. I am a self-taught solopreneur and jewelry maker. I live in Northern Indiana with my husband, daughter and my cat, Smallville, where I enjoy glamping (when the weather’s good) and the occasional donut. I’ve been a creative since I was a little. Before I started this business, I was an Orthodontic Assistant for 12 years – I still take great pride in my wire bending skills. My husband came up with the name Honey Shea Studios while he was deployed to Kuwait. We both liked the Bible reference and that it’s easy to remember. In life and business, I like to keep things simple and sweet. I’m drawn to minimalist design and understated symbolism. I love making elegant, thoughtful jewelry that will have meaning for the wearer. I’d love to get to know you! Feel free to leave comments.

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